Monday, April 07, 2008
Los fantasmas nunca nos abandonan y viven para cazar nuestros silencios. En un descuido una fotografía tuya se escondió bajo un librero hace algunos meses. Ayer, en la tranquilidad falsa que ofrece la tarde del domingo la encontré sólo para sentarme en la cama y contemplar tu risa que tanto extraño. ¿Qué significa este hallazgo? Las epifanías de un día común se llenan de memoria y de pequeñas fortalezas emocionales para llevarnos a ciertas transformaciones lentas de una tarde. En esa foto hay cientos de hechos que no puedo comprender: el paso de la luz entre las nubes, tus pasos en el camino de tierra, las ramas del árbol que parecen alcanzarte, tu hermosa risa que dio pie a mi destino: sí, here's’ where the store ends.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
Knives Out, by Radiohead

Húmedo lecho de muerte es tu boca devorándome cada noche. Haciendo de mi cuerpo un mastique viejo, sin sabor. ¿Es que no puedes tragar mi tristeza de un bocado? La he alimentado toda mi vida con las penas más pesadas, para que juntos, en esta destrucción amorosa, caigamos pronto hasta el fondo de nuestra tumba matrimonial.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Monday, December 17, 2007
This Time Tomorrow, by The Kinks

Walking at dawn. Wondering where will we be, not only tomorrow, but all the tomorrows we have ahead of us. The wind blowing hard. My eye aches because of polution. Does it really matter after last night? After all the nights before? People walking and pushing each other trying to step inside the buses, making noise. Nothing worries me now. None of that noise bothers me. "This time tomorrow where will we be?" As if it really mattered.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Protection, by Massive Attack
There are songs which were made to guide your way back home. Walking late at night, not a soul on the street and you feel the breeze of the rain which fell earlier. The earphones pumping as the only thing you can hang on to yourself. There are songs which were written for specific reasons, to make us feel that nothing really is that important. You can always return home (whatever you want to understand for home). These songs will never turn their back on you. That's why they are so impresonal, more than that, they are trully universal.
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Famous Blue Raincoat, by Marcel et Isabelle Kanche
No need to explain: love was gone before you left through the door. All I have is this song.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Kangaroo, by This Mortal Coil
Los fantasmas se niegan a morir: existen para abandonarnos o ser nuestros nombres escondidos. Decapitados, nos abandonan en las calles que recorremos en la madrugada. Claro que esperamos encontrarlos en cada gesto familiar que reconocemos. Pero la memoria es una ciencia de nombres, de gratitudes que nos salvan y que nos hacen vulnerables. "Estamos como/de otoño//sobre árboles/las hojas" escribio Ungaretti. Cada nombre es que una pasión que nos hunde y nos persigue hasta la muerte. Porque la vida es demasiado menesterosa para encenderse con las hojas de otoño.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Have You Forgotten, by Red House Painters

Las preguntas esenciales a veces se omiten. Por miedo, por desidia, por olvido. Generación perdida en el cinismo: pasar de la intimidad total al desconocimiento. Cuando te vuelves extraño. Normalizamos las separaciones y las rupturas, tomamos nuevas rutas y pensamos que eso nos aleja del lugar donde venimos. ¿Ya se te olvido, acaso, cuando éramos amigos? Pregunta esencial, sin duda. Another pint of Guinness for me please, mate...
Saturday, September 08, 2007
Something's Always Wrong, by Toad the Wet Sprocket

Cuando tenía 16, parecía que todo estaba mal, o por lo menos ALGO estaba mal todo el tiempo. Nunca podía tener un momento donde todo se conjugara mágicamente para llenarme por completo. Algo, alguien faltaba.
Con el paso del tiempo sigo pensando que algo está mal todo el tiempo. Los 360 grados que rodean mi cuerpo en algún punto muestran un horizonte no muy agradable. Lo bueno es que hay otros 359 que pueden no estar tan pinches, y uno o dos que se ven maravillosos. Creo que hacia allá quiero caminar. Siempre es bueno, sin embargo, saber que ahí están esos caminos oscuros y ominosos, esos que siempre, siempre, están mal.
Thursday, September 06, 2007
The Grudge, by Tool

Chip on my shoulder
Dragging me down, with each drink I have, the void in my eyes getting darker, the voice in the past fading faster: You should have, should have not.
Another glass of bile, a second pouring of scorn, a third and fourth damming of my inability to remember what I did wrong.
Let go
Let go
Let go.
Monday, September 03, 2007
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Cliffs, by Aphex Twin

Cuando el cielo no nos alcanza,
la tierra intenta extenderse,
acariciarnos.
Sus accidentes dejan de serlo,
se convierten en patrones
a noventa kilómetros por hora.
Nadie los dibuja,
pero se borran
y se forman.
Se borran
y se forman.
Las repeticiones
no cesan, quieren romperse,
la monotonía se quiebra,
nos dice:
“verde, azul”.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
You Know I'm No Good, by Amy Winehouse

Some women are like a force of nature. We must accept we are helpless before them. You just have to let go, because otherwise you will live in hell: your chest, your stomach, your whole body will burn with a mixture of jealousy, desire, envy, passion, lust. We can't but fall in love with them: no fair warning will help us from falling into the darkness of their abyss. Sweat, whiskey, sex and sax: the ceiling of the night will drip tears of blood. We have to let fate tempt us; accept our destinies and walk the plank, blindfolded, out of our own free will. This is the real siren's call. Man's ruin. A beautiful, strong, intelligent, sexy woman. Pura piel, pura voz. Ella and Roberta haunt her song. Throw the dice. Close your eyes. You know it, and still you will fall.
Monday, August 20, 2007
A Little Soul by Pulp
Until very recently, I didn't want to have children. Not that I was afraid that they'd ruin my career, or that I was too young but might change my mind as I got older, or even anything about world population levels - I was afraid that I'd be a bad parent.Yeah, I wish I could be an example.
Wish I could say I stood up for you and fought for what was right.
But I never did.
Specifically I didn't want to be the kind of parent my mother is. I still am afraid of that, and more; there are just so many ways to be a bad mother. And, if anything my fears have increased as I've gotten older; knowing myself as I do, and my inability to break bad habits. Like the protagonist in this song, you can be aware of the problem, but you might not be able to fix it; the behaviour perpetuates itself for the length of your life. Is there anything scarier?
You think I'm joking?
Well, try me. Yeah, try me. Yeah come on, try me tonight.
I did what was wrong though I knew what was right.
I've got no wisdom that I want to pass on.
Just don't hang 'round here, no, I'm telling you son.
You don't wanna know me...





